Freedom is almost GONE

From today i will have 1mth before NS... I wish I can go in now so I can sleep every nite sweet n tired... Too tired till I cannot think of anything...

Been almost 11mths if im not wrong. Single is good... Why things happen that i cant get over it. Never had a problem with that before. Maybe its my stupidity that kept things inside myself that hope that something impossible will happen. Why? Relationship is a hard thing to start and maintain. I always believe in giving your heart is the best why to make the other party have trust in you to understand you. Seem like Im wrong agian. I felt more mature now in thinking. Lose hope on people I met nowadays. Hopeless ME... I need a few SLAPS to wake up..!

Im starting to like my life... Stress free for the other party. Money flow hasn't been a problem now. Got my BIG dream that I need to get. Time line 1year time from now. If I fail this I will be very depress and may give up hope on myself...

Stressful.

What a life... Full of shit