Sleepy Head

LOVE STARWARS... Muack... Tick Tick Tick I only left 1mth before NS.. Argh so sian... things gonna change soon...

Just came back time 6:30am clear sky. Nice dark blue sky. Out at around 6:15pm went to starbucks at OCBC building find josh.. Looking for my free cheese cake... keke Love that so CHEESEEYYYY.... making me hungry now just thinking about it.. haha

Went down to cine to buy ticket after that... All the time slot was full... only got good sittings at 12:20am. Wa what the hell rite...? got 3hours dunno do what... Good to see kelvin today. At last the group is kind of back together again after sometime back coz of some stupid PROBLEM.. but whatever things is better now im happy for the way it is now..

damn crazy after the show when down to MR BEAN to find WJ. Talk cock again look at china gals lol... Ya.. today so many ppl in orchard hmm must be the sale thing that draw so many ppl around orchard... haha after tat they went back.. then went to meet KEVIN any other MIA friend of mine.. play billiard, talk cock, talking about website design layout, full of stuff....

Its a crazy day for me to see so many friends of mine haha running here n there all nite long till the sun is coming out now... Oh NO.. SUN is coming out i got to run now n sleep got to do things tomolo again.. 'MISSING U'

-Pook My Eye Please.. >.-

Moody

Mood: Moody, Crappy, Depress.
This song white lies is in my blog it mean loads of things.. I love this song..

Sat nothing to do just wake up not so long ago. Waiting for daddy to come back so i can drive out n meet 'me' friend to watch STAR WARS.. YEAH~~~

What the hell

My Hand its breaking apart..

Can u see my DARK EYE RINGS...


Its been up side down for nearly a year...

Wednesday

Just got home 7am now. Where to start. Someone woke me up today asking about computer stuff... I was shock to hear the voice i haven't heard for some time back. Oh whatever..

After that my full body was aching damn bad and i never felt so bad before... I think its due to my depression and my crazy sleep time cos me to become like tat but anyway i like it this way pain keeps me going...

I tot i was good. But i know i always lie to myself about things that im not. I have never felt so lost n lone. It couldn't be happening to me. I think I am lying to myself again even a blog...

I hope that i have a scanner so i can put a picture on the net. I draw something to due to my moods. Said enough 'DEPRESSION; PAIN KEEP ME GOING' that all for now...

Sunday

'EMO DAY'

At last my illness have mostly recover. Its been more then 3weeks. Sunday... What do I do most sunday stay at home with someone close by... But there isn't now.
So boring. Just woke up not long ago feel like going down to sentosa for a TAN. But dont think anyone will want to go now at this time.
Dream of flying in the clear blue sky. Just myself only... Some crazy dream i had.

Well i better get going now to some where i belong.

B L U E S K Y

Just came back from JB, PERLING(beside JB) and BATAM all of this just happen last week or so ago.

BATAM 7May'04 (3Days,2Nights)
I was very happy that we are going to BATAM to have my get away i was looking for one for a long time. So stress up in singapore. All my sadness and lies I heard.
Haha its very funny I was with Justin, Cherie, Joshua.. We all though that BATAM is a god damn cheap place but soon we found out that it isnt... LOL. Reach the resort want to check in first time they need deopit S$50 or VISA... Well, We all didnt bring any VISA coz we tot that its very cheap lol. Lucky i bring my SGD with me.
Cut things short we went shopping n shop n shop.. Very cheap but our resort is the KILLER everything in SGD wtf RITE~~ (BATAM VIEW) dont go there. Zzzz.

Its was fun overall lovely view and a nice personal sea side they have.. Kana sunburn till now havent recover sianzz.


Coming back to Singapore till now.
Felt very lonely again. But i really have clear my head with things that i wish to put down. Walking~~~~~ Yet to see anything ~~~~~ still walking ~~~~~~

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Isszit a gal quiz i have no idea haha... More updates soon bah..

Its' Short

Short term. Things come and go, friend come and go, born and die... and more if you can think harder. Nothing is forever.

Disappointed, Heart broken, Depress, Stress... This is how I felt now. I just don't understand why everytime I put in so much for a thing but end up nothing in return. I don't think I will ever care so much about this kind of stuff anymore.. It's draws in to much of my energy, care, time... Just maybe I should keep it for the person that do the same thing for me. It's tiring to love someone. Its tiring to keep giving and there is no return... Thing should stop now. I don't wish to care about anything at all.. I need a getting a get away, out of this world. To a my dream world. Everything will be so wonderful. Everything will be fine again.

In pain.
It should be
short term.
Double Hit,
May not take it.
Life still drag along.
Day passes with memory's.
Don't understand why.
Maybe Im just stupid.
Get Manipulate.
Didn't even know.
I always think positive,
End up negative.
Im tired.
Im hurt.
May not recover anymore.
I wish to change.
There isn't time for me,
NS is here.
I felt so lonely,
no care and love around once more...

Everyday I wake up, I always say to myself that today will be a nice day to start with, but deep down inside me, is in pain with all the moves i did. Fire is still burning melting away inside me. No one will understand me well. I haven't found anyone. Only look at my smiling face and think that im fine.. but im not..


In memory of MYSELF...
Mood: Extremely Depress and Sad